Thoughts...

It's been a long while since I've posted on my blog... I don't know how long for certain but it's definitely been too long... I realized I have a lot of thoughts in my head that I want to blog about but I hardly ever get out my journal or get on my laptop and blog. Then my thoughts tend to disappear..

One of my thoughts was about sharing... Would it be so bad if everything was free? If we all shared with each other? If everyone was equal? Would that be so bad? I mean people kill other people over money and power and things! If everyone was equal, we wouldn't have that problem. If no man had any more power over another man, maybe there would be less violence in the world.. Wouldn't that be a good thing? I mean, I know it's a crazy idea that probably won't happen on this Earth.. But if it was possible, I think there would be a lot less greed and violence in the world. Just an idea...

There are a lot of whistlers in my family.. I feel like everyone whistles or sings in this house.. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but my sister is kind of a loud whistler. I'm not a fan of loud things.. I know she's probably just doing it out of habit and to have fun..but how does she do it so loudly? It's totes cray cray. :P

Have you ever had something eating at you but you can't seem to make it go away? I've been having this off and on feeling for like the past year. I was dating this guy named Jordan Day. He was a recent RM and started working with me. I know, I know, dating people you work with can be a bad idea... But it always feels different when you're in the moment.. Anyway, so Jordan was an RM and we were getting lunch or something and he told me that I should go on a mission. Well, he more suggested it, like it would be a good idea. He also said he might regret it later and change his mind and want me to stay, but that he would support me.So, life goes on... Then at General Conference, they make the announcement that the missionary age limit has changed. Now boys can go at age 18 and girls can go at age 19. Crazy stuff, right? I didn't think much of it at first. My friend/coworker Carlie, however, was ecstatic about it and I think she started crying at work. We had to work that Saturday. So we didn't get to watch conference but some of us were able to listen to the radio on the computer. I did that for the next General Conference but not for that particular one where they made that announcement. Anywho, since the age change we've had a ton of people get their mission calls earlier and leave on missions. All the event invites I seem to get on Facebook are invites to weddings, farewells, homecomings, or baby showers. I'm just chilling over here going to school and work... Anyway, awhile after the age change, after I had contemplated it, I was still dating Jordan. I had felt like I should break up with him but I wasn't sure why.. I mean, looking back at it now, breaking up with him was a good idea for so many other reasons... But the reason I told him was that I wanted to go on a mission. I wasn't lying by any means, but that was the easiest reason. There were other reasons, like the fact that he lied to me and was childish and other stuff.. But I felt like if I told him I was going on a mission, he'd understand and we wouldn't end on a bad note. Things got really weird after that.. The first night he said he was proud of me and supported me and wanted to help in any way he could. The following week he was really weird and clingy and boyfriend-ish and acted like we were still together. It was awkward.. We got in a lot of fights and he said I was going to get kicked out of the MTC. Basically, the end result of the relationship was he quit his job at the place where I work and started dating a girl who still works there, as far as I know, but is now planning to go on a mission... Funny how that turned out... Anyway, Jordan and I don't talk anymore. He's said some rude things about me on Facebook behind my back, which is rude and childish and immature. I mean for one, he hasn't talked to me or seen me since he quit. Therefore, he has no idea what I had been doing. Second of all, he had another girlfriend. I mean, what kind of person bad talks his ex on Facebook, to the world, in front of his new girlfriend, no less? I would not want to be Amy (his girlfriend). It was a whole stupid thing. I don't know what he heard or who told him what but basically he said I was a terrible person and he's glad we broke up. I don't know what he heard or from who or what made him say that, but it was rude and uncalled for and whatever he said or was referring to was probably not true. Anyway, that's not the point. We're broken up. It doesn't matter anymore. I just wanted to rant about that somewhere... Back to the point of the story.. After Jordan quit, I didn't have a lot of motivation to go on a mission. I had people ask about it several times but I never really got my papers or anything. I talked to my bishop once but it was for like 2 minutes. Basically, I don't think I'm going on a mission... That was also partly because during the Summer, I dated Cody Christensen, also a guy from work. He was probably the most amazing boyfriend. He said all the right things, took me on fun dates, gave me a nice present, all that jazz.. Our first date was super romantic.. He was almost perfect. But he went back to USU when Fall semester started up. I was heart broken and things didn't work out. He was part of the reason why I thought maybe I was supposed to get married instead of go on a mission. I'm still not 100% certain of what I should do. But I'm leaning more towards focusing on school and work and learning more about the gospel and helping others and serving at home. I feel like that's a good idea. I just keep wondering if I'm supposed to go on a mission still.. I just don't think I want to anymore. Don't get me wrong, I think missions are important and every able young man should go, but they're not necessarily the right choice for everyone, which is why I think that maybe I'm supposed to be different. But I can't say for sure. That's just been bugging me for a while and I wish it would go away.

I'm falling asleep at my laptop. So, I'm going to end here and get into bed. I doubt anyone reads this anymore, but to anyone who might, good night and farewell.

<3 Katlyn

P.S. I've started going by Kate or Katlyn, because my full name is Katlyn. So if you called me Kat, please call me Kate or Katlyn.

Happy Dear Diary Day... Or "Dear Blog Day". :)

Today, I had a dream about going on a date with a guy who I didn't really know. I don't remember him well enough to recognize him.. But I must have seen him somewhere in real life, if it's true that you only dream about people you've seen before... Anyway, it was a good dream. I went on a date with this guy, who I think was blonde, and I want to say his name was Michael because that name's been stuck in my brain for a while, not sure why... But I don't remember much about the guy. I do remember we went on a date. Then we were at his house and I left to change or something.. Then I was coming back to watch movies with  him and his friend, who I think also had a date. The main thing I remember about the dream, was that I really liked the guy, almost like he was "the one", and when I woke up I was depressed because it was such a good dream. That's the down side to good dreams... waking up. :P But yeah, I wanted to remember that. So I put it on the blog.

There's not much to tell... For anyone who doesn't know, I have a job at MediConnect... That's all I'm putting because anyone who reads this probably is already aware of that...

So, I don't know if I'm just super lonely or if I might have depression... But tonight has been hard, being home alone again for two nights in a row.. Tonight had more crying than last night... I don't see anyone but my family during the week, and even then I only see them an hour or so before work, and then at night, before they go to bed... I only see my friends on the weekend, when I'm lucky.. I like having a job and making money, but I really miss seeing people besides my coworkers.. I miss my friends.. a lot.. If you're reading this, you're probably one of the friends I've been missing.. Sigh... I don't know if anyone is reading this, but I'm not posting this so you'll feel sorry for me. I just need to let my feelings out and Twitter has a character limit. Hah.. I'm sorry if reading this upsets anyone. Just so you know.

You know how listening to certain music can affect your mood? Well right now it's making me want to cry a little.. But I don't have any tears left in me.. This is a very depressing post. I'm sorry.

On a lighter note, I was heating up nacho sauce and it sounded like something exploded.. So I'm going to make sure nothing did.

Hope this brightens at least one person's day.

TFR! (Thanks for reading)

<3

Post-Mads

Hmm... What to talk about today... Well, one of my friends from high school, who was also in Madrigals with me, had his farewell talk last Sunday. His name is CJ Madsen. He's a great kid. He's really nice. He's also super talented but most people who know him already know this.. So, anyway. I went to his farewell with his future wife, Sam Boldrin. :) She's one of my good friends, who was also in Mads with me. She and CJ are pretty much going to be married in the temple, in the future, as most everyone who knows both of them already knows from being at school with them. ;) You'd understand if you went to school with those two. So cute. :) So, during sacrament meeting, CJ gave a wonderful talk and also sang a beautiful song. It made me cry, which happens a lot when I hear powerful and spiritual music. And also when I see sad movies, or hear sad songs, or my friends are leaving, or you know pretty much all the time. I cry a lot. :P Anyway, the point of this paragraph thingy is that CJ and Sam are adorable, CJ's leaving on his mission soon, and I'm a crybaby. By the way, CJ is going to Raleigh, North Carolina, if I remember correctly, Spanish speaking. I think he leaves like this week or next week... Very soon.. We'll miss him.

CJ Madsen and Sam Boldrin <3

Dylan, Justin, Me, CJ, Sam, and CJ's partner Carly

Last Friday, I think it was, aka last Saturday (it was like midnight or so), I was texting a good friend o' mine named Dylan Johnson. We met in high school, through choir/friends, I think. He was in Madrigals too. :) He was texting me over the weekend and asked if I was doing anything this week (next week at the time). I said "..not that I know of, why?". He responded and invited me to go up to Snowbird with his family for a day. They go up every year, he said. I was a little surprised, at first, when he asked me, because he and I didn't hang out very often, partly due to our confusing history.. but I love Dylan, and miss him due to school being out and not seeing him since like the last Madrigal gig, and I thought it would be fun to hang out with him again. So I said I'd love to. :) I asked him why he asked me and basically he said "I really wanna spend time with you..you're an amazing person. and you're fun to be with..". I would've said yes anyway, but that really sealed the deal. ;) I'm not sure when I'll be going up there, or how I'll be getting up there, but I'm excited to go up there. :)

Me, Dylan, Justin and Maddie

Me and Dylan (from left) and other people in Belles Voix/Take 10

Finally, before I go, I'll end with another Mad friend o' mine named Justin Cook. He and I have been best friends since around December of sophomore year. We have our friend-iversary on the 15th of each month. :) He and I are still friends. We still hang out together. Although, we've brought another girl into our mix. Her name is Maddie Cavanass. She is Justin's girlfriend and quite possibly his future fiance. ;) Those two are adorable. They started dating during choir tour of our senior year. That was a very interesting choir tour.. But anyway, us three have become best friends and have hung out together a lot. It's quite fun. We had game night at Maddie's recently, which was fun. I hope to see them again soon.

Justin and Maddie, Sam in the back

Justin, Maddie, Dylan, Me, and our friend Matt

That's all for now. More later. Love you all!

P.S. Thanks for reading my blog!

I Kissed a Girl and I Liked It...

In  my dream last night.... I have weird dreams.. Last night, I dreamed that I was at like a party, with this girl, and for some reason we started making out.. And it wasn't til I woke up, that I realized I was making out with a girl. I don't think I've ever had a dream about kissing girls before last night.. So that was odd..

Anywho, I mostly just wanted to say that. So I don't know what else to say...

My friend Calvin is out camping right now, so he hasn't been talking to me, which has been kind of sad. But I still have my best friend, Halen, to talk to. :) Unfortunately, he's also busy and can't talk right now.. But hopefully he'll text me again soon. I miss those boys..

Calvin (wet pool hair)

Halen in a tux. :)

Cute Squall

Squall Leonheart

By the way, I finally came up with a name for Halen: Leon ("lion"). It came from a video game, sort of.. A character on Final Fantasy.. (8?), is named Squall Leonheart and he's a lot like Halen. Halen is also very protective, like a lion. But rather than use an animal name, I just switched the vowel. So it's Leon, but it sounds like lion. I think he likes it. :)

My Little Pony - Squall (Just for you, Halen ;) )

Well, I'm almost done with my Ramen now. So I'm gonna go. Have a great day!
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P.S. Thanks for reading my blog! :)

d=d p_p -O-

So, last Saturday, was my 18th birthday. Crazy right? I know. It's weird. Now I can go to jail, and vote, and   stuff.. Weird.. Anywho, the day before my birthday, I went shopping with my mom for a birthday outfit. I had no idea what to get, or what I wanted, except that it had to be cute (duh). So I looked around and decided that I wanted a denim button down shirt dress, or a denim button down shirt with colored skinny jeans. I got both! :) This is what I modeled my outfit after. It's almost exactly the same, except I had a different necklace, and slightly different belt.

My bday outfit. Even did my hair the same way.

I like to do a birthday blog post and tell people what I got. Just for fun. And to help me remember for future reference. So, let's see... From my sister and her family, the Bartons, I received Grandma Sycamore's white bread (my favorite) and Goober's PB&J, which is peanut butter and jelly in one jar. DELICIOUS! I love it so. :) From my parents, I received the clothes I had picked out at the store and a new pair of TOMS, that were white and blue striped. I also received Season 1 and 2 of FRIENDS and a piggy bank.

From my brother and his family, the Faraghers, I received my old hoodie (so funny) and 3 GLEE CD's. My little sister, Sadee gave me a MLP (My Little Pony) coloring book. She also gave me a Disney/Pixar's Greatest Hits CD. I love it. My older sister, Heather gave me a notebook she made a cute cover for and she helped pick out my TOMS. I think that's it... That's all I can remember, anyway.

On a side note, can anyone tell what I was trying to make in the title of this post? It didn't really work.. but I'll be happy if someone guesses right. :)

Also, today is a wonderful day... Why, you might ask? Halen is coming home!!! He's been in Oregon for 2 weeks. I've missed him very much. I haven't been able to watch more than one episode of Doctor Who, the whole time he's been gone. It made me miss him more. However, I did happen to watch a ton of My Little Pony, which he loves, which also reminded me of him, but was a little easier to watch, because he never watched it with me. So now we'll have more to talk about! And hopefully we can hang out soon, so we can catch up on everything! I'm so excited!!

Fluttershy :)

Me n Halen

Well, that's all for now. I think I might go back to bed. I am SO tired.. Have a safe trip home, Halen. Love you!

P.S. Thanks for reading my blog!

Blarg.

Today, I had a scary dream about someone I used to hang out with, but am not so fond of anymore, which was weird.. Anyway, in the dream I was with my mom walking somewhere down the street,with Adam O'Reilly, and he kept hurting himself in some way, as we were walking down the street. It kept freaking me and my mom out. And at one point, he was bleeding, and had a big stick/stump thing stuck in his ankle. Then my mom said we had to drive him to the hospital, but he kept acting like nothing was wrong. I woke up before we drove anywhere. But it was really weird, considering I haven't seen him since right before school got out, and at that time, he was asking to date me, and I said no, and it didn't go very well.. It ended with him walking home, and my three best friends showing up to save me, just after he left. Thank goodness for them.

Speaking of best friends, I haven't introduced one of my newest and greatest best friends. His name is Sceili. Well, his full name is Van Halen Scott Sceili. He's one of the greatest friends I've ever had. He's sweet, funny, protective, loving, caring, fun and just overall a great best friend.

Halen :)

A while ago, I was hanging out with this best friend o' mine and we watched movies and talked and stuff. We had very open conversations and he shared a lot with me.. Not many people do that with me, that quickly. So I was very surprised when he did. But I really enjoyed that day, and the conversations we had. I felt close to him, even before that day, just through our texting, I felt really close to him, like we'd been friends a long time ago...

Halen n Me

One thing Halen always says, is that he doesn't like kids.. But he looks so cute with them. I don't know how he could not like them. I think it's because he's an only child. He's never been with many little kids, and he's not a woman, so no motherly instinct. That's my guess. But some people just don't like kids too, I guess.. Who knows?

 This is Halen with some little kids, who I think he's related to, but they're not his siblings.. Cousins maybe.

One of my struggles with Halen, is that I can't think of a good nickname for him. He calls me Roo, which is awesome, but I can't think of a good one for him. My first try was Ruff, but that felt weird... and I've been trying out Vee, but that hasn't clicked yet either.. I had the perfect one, Bear, but other people call him that, and we wanted our own special names for each other. My family calls him VHS sometimes.. That's the only one I can really use so far. So it's been hard thinking of one that fits him.

VHS

Well, I'm hungry. So I'm gonna go find food. I will probably post again later. But before I go...

Halen, if you're reading this, please know that I love you and that you're an amazing friend. Thank you for being there for me and being such an amazing person. Have a great day. Have fun in Oregon, if you're still there, at the time. Be safe. Love, Roo.

P.S. Thanks for reading my blog. :)

Long time... No posting.. My bad. :P

I had a random thought today. I've only been to a school dance once with a guy that I really liked. All the other times, it was just a friend.. That's not really important.. But that's what I thought of.

My good friend, Bryson Chipman, is in training for the marines. He's in California right now. He gave me one of his hats to hold onto. So I took a few pictures of me wearing it to send to him. I'll be putting them in the letter I wrote but haven't sent, due to lack of printed pictures. :P Anyway, he seems to be doing fine. I read his letters on the blog about him that his sister is in charge of.

Bryson's hat (back)

Bryson's hat (front)

These are two of the pictures I will be sending to him.
Hopefully he enjoys them. :)


{I wonder why the pictures aren't even... Curious... Very suspicious... Not really, I just needed to fill this space. =] Hehehehe. :P}


Okay, so I only know of one person who reads this somewhat regularly.. Unless that other person reads it too... Anyway, here's a shout out to whoever is still reading this, even though I haven't posted in a long time. Thanks!

On another note, I had my last ever Madrigal gig recently. We went to the Homestead and sang for some school district people, (I can never remember their name..) which was pretty fun. I almost passed out, which was lame for me, but a nice lady brought me some pink punch-looking drink. The other Mads were jealous. She also brought me a roll, which wasn't too bad. The district people gave us candy bars too, which were yummy. They seem to like us. The Mads all went to dinner together at Red Robin afterwards. The food was great. The people were really nice. It was nice way to end our Madrigal season.

Last time I ever have to wear that. Now I can wear it whenever I want. :) Good times. Glad it's cute.

Me in my uniform

That's all for now. More posting later. :) 

<3 Katt